When you're gone {2}

原来是骗不了自己，我的确很想你，是非常... 我以为告诉你我不会哭，等到很累

我就能解脱，是！我承认有时真的在想何必呢? 但我还是无法控制自己...

对不起我骗了你，我还是一样老样子地想念你，看着我们的照片越看你感觉

就越幸福.......

我会告诉你我们还没结婚那其实并不是我不喜欢你叫我老婆而是在提醒我自己应该理智点，

不想把这份幸福这么快就拥有而会很快又失去!!! 我真的不想这样!

因为我知道自己接下来的日子我会更痛苦，因为无法在你身边而更思念你，你的一切切!

家里竟然不习惯了，突然的很安静.. 很安静.... 没有你的令人哭笑不得的声音，你的一举一动...

每当你在叫我老婆时，你懂我的心从来没有过的甜吗？真的甜在心里!可是很担心这种快乐很快会离我而去.....

在你要走的那天在Jusco 的露台，你都一直问我，为什么不和你讲话都不看你，其实当时你不懂，我也不会在那时让你知道我的心又多痛!! 我的心在趟血，在那时我多么的难受！

我不想讲话是因为我忍得很辛苦地把那句话不告诉你，不让你知道我有多么的不舍得你，

还有我知道若我开口我会求你求得很厉害地叫你请你别离开我，好吗?

但我并不想这样做，我不敢看你是因为我害怕我会不舍得，而且我不敢贪心的多望你一眼

因为贪心只会弄得我更加受苦，是自己拿来的苦

因为再望你我会紧抱你不再让你走.....

不断努力地告诉自己一直拼命地提醒自己，千万别在你面前露出任何不舍的样子，

别哭出来先一定要挨到你平安回到时，很幸运的你终于上了车，看见车子越走越远时就已很清楚，你还是回了，在的士里回家路上眼泪好像喉头坏了自由地往下流个不停，回到家只能冲进房里坐在地上身子趴在床边的痛哭了起来，哭得很痛，痛得再大哭

因为我是自私的，我只想和你在一起，我更知道不可能，因为就算你在KL我们就一定可以天天粘在一起吗?这是完全不可能，所以在这段时间里我会更加学习珍惜，

因为就算再怎么近可是心不在你那里，都是白费的，可是我懂你，信你，所以再怎么远两个人的心依然在一起

不喜欢咖啡的我竟然爱上了你爱喝的咖啡香，我喝咖啡为了保留你的气味在叫你平时叫得食物吃，只不过，想好让我更能感觉到你在我的身边

老公

老婆真的很想你，还是不听话的眼泪它.... 偷溜了出来

还有，我当然等你，除了你还有谁再值得我去等

5/10/2011 Tuesday Midnight  2:50

When you're gone {1}

在深夜里，不敢打扰你... 只好在这里告诉你我想你，很想你，超想你....听着When you're gone...看着照片里的你，我什么都做不到...心里打架，告诉自己一切都很正常，我明白...可是心，脑子里都是你，不怕辛苦不怕累地想念你...喝水时想起你，吩咐我记得喝多点要温的，路过咖啡店或去喝喝茶的地方总是嗅到咖啡味好像你在似的....可是每次回头...那只不过是我太想你的画面罢了...

告诉自己不许哭，不必哭，可是看着看着照片中的我们，眼角冰冰的泪珠竟然滑落了...鼻子突然酸了起来又是哭了出来....... 我很无助，无奈，无力...... 我没办法留在你身边，更没办法把你留在身边...

总是矛盾地接你电话，怕听到你的声音因为害怕挂电话的那刻....不舍得，很不舍得...想起泪也都同来，很对不起...总是爱对你耍脾气! 无理由地...可是你都不气我反而更紧张我，我的心更痛!!!!!!! 当我写这 '痛' 时真的痛得无法形容.....因为明知你没错是自己想你，只想你更加的注意我可以快点回来，无聊的我竟然还是要做，明知你就不会.... 还是每次都同样的对你发无理的气....... 我竟然会这样做?? 可是每次过后都很后悔，因为自相矛盾地怕你对我的爱因此减少! 害怕失去你，没了你我怎么办? 我不知不觉中，深深的爱上了你被你紧紧地吸引着,

我爱你

伟盛..........

总是念念不忘的记得你那语气语调的叫我                 老婆

29/9/2011 Wednesday Midnight 12:47

Yesterday was a Fairytale♥

♥~Muacksss~♥


Yesterday was a Fairytaleeee♥
You were the prince
 I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand and you meet at eight
Yesterday was a Fairytale

Yesterday was a Fairytale
I wore a dress
You wore a dark grey shirt
You told me I was pretty when I'm looked like a mess
Yesterday was Fairytale~
Time were passing FAST, whenever you're around

But Can you feel this magic in the air?
It Must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in Love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Yesterday was a Fairytale

Yesterday was a Fairytale
You've got a smile That takes me to another planet
Every move you make everything you say is right
Yesterday was a Fairytale

All that I can say is now it's getting so much clearer
Nothing made sense until the time I saw your face
Yesterday was a Fairytale

Time were passing FAST whenever you're around
I can feel my heart
It's beating in my chest
Did you feel it?
I can't put this down
Hiak Hiak~ Miss you badly narrr^-^♥

Wish You were Here

I can be tough
I can be strong
BuT with you..It's not like that at all
There's a GirL who gives a SHIT
Behind this wall
You just walk through it

And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You always there You everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it
Just went with it
You always there You everywhere
But right NOW I wish you here

Damn Damn Damn
What I'd to do have you here here HERE
I wish you were  here
Damn Damn Damn
What I'd to do have you near near NEAR
I wish you were HERE

I Love the way you are
It's who I am don't have to try hard
We always say, say like it this
And the truth is that I really miss

And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You always there You everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it
Just went with it
You always there You everywhere
But right NOW I wish you here

Damn Damn Damn
What I'd to do have you here here HERE
I wish you were  here
Damn Damn Damn
What I'd to do have you near near NEAR
I wish you were HERE

NO, I don't wanna let go
Ijust wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
NO, I don't wanna let go
Ijust wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

Damn Damn Damn
What I'd to do have you here here HERE
I wish you were  here
Damn Damn Damn
What I'd to do have you near near NEAR
I wish you were HERE

What am I doing??!

How SILLY I am??XDD
hahahahahahahahahahaha

STRESS, CAN'T SLEEP WELL, CAN'T EAT WELL.!!!
Even vrery very verY hungry aso can't eat!! Y~?? Nervous MAN~!!!! XD LOLLLLLL!!!!!!
StupiD mE r~~xC xD

hahahaha.. Even the meeting was over.. I sTiLL~ can't eat =.=.. NoT I don't want to eat!! Is 'chi bu xia' laRR~~ hahaha..
But now ok dy=)

What can I do?
No..~!
 Nothing~!
Just don't want~
cz.....!

I really don't want to be back like LAST TIME!!!!
I scared!! I really SCARED!!
It really really REALLY NIGHTMARES to mE!!!~~ >~< XC
NO NO~! I don't want to be back!! & ofcz I don't want to look BACK!!

GambateH lar~!! =D

I'm looking forward..=)

Remember WHEN♥

Remember when I cried
To yoU a thousand times
I told you everything
You know my feelings
It never crossed my mind
That there would be a time
For US to say GoodBye~
What a Big surprise?!

BUT I'm not lost, I'm not gone, I haven't forgot


These feelings I can't shake no more
These feelings Are running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I'm not coming back around
These feelings I take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer

It's getting HARD to pretend

AnD I'm not coming back around Again
Remember WHEN . . . ...



I'll remember WHEN
It was together 'till the EnD
Now I'm alone again
Where do I begin?
I cried a little bit
You died a little bit
PLease say there's NO regret
And say you won't forget

BUT I'm not lost, I'm not gone, I haven't forgot


These feelings I can't shake no more
These feelings Are running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I'm not coming back around
These feelings I take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer

It's getting HARD to pretend

AnD I'm not coming back around Again
Remember WHEN . . . ...

That was then
Now It's the End
I'm not coming back
I can't pretend
Remember WHen ...


These feelings I can't shake no more
These feelings Are running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I'm not coming back around
These feelings I take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer

It's getting HARD to pretend

AnD I'm not coming back around Again♥

All This talking to yoU♥

All this talking to yoU♥

I don't know WHaT I'm to dO~

I don't know WHeRe yoU sTanD~!

WHAT's inside of youR HeaD?!

All this thinking of yoU♥

Is that what you're doinG toO??

You're aLways On my minD...

I talk abouT yoU aLL of the TimE~...!

Don't WastE anotheR DaY~!

Don't wastE another MinutE~!

I CAN'T waiT to seE youR facE....!

Just to show yoU how muCH I'm In IT~

So~.. OpeN Up youR HeaRT~~

HELP me understanD~

PLease tell me whO you ARE..

So I can shoW yoU whO I am=)

You're just sTanding By...

You're just wasting timE...!

WhY don't yoU just teLL mE the TRuth?~

ABoUT mE & yoU♥

And as the time goes by..

I hOPe yoU reAlizE~!

If yoU aSk mE to.. .

I just migHt Be with yoU♥

So~! Don't waste another DaY~!

Don't waste another MinuTE~!

I CAN'T waiT to seE youR facE....!

Just to show yoU how muCH I'm In IT~

So~.. OpeN Up youR HeaRT~~

HELP me understanD~

PLease tell me whO you ARE..

So I can shoW yoU whO I am=)

STOP~! Standing There.. STand there

STOP~! AcTing like yoU DoN'T caRE

STOP~! BeinG scared.. BeinG scared

STOP~! AcTing like yoU DoN'T caREeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~

So~! Don't waste another DaY~!

Don't waste another MinuTE~!

I CAN'T waiT to seE youR facE....!

Just to show yoU how muCH I'm In IT~

So~.. OpeN Up youR HeaRT~~

HELP me understanD~

PLease tell me whO you ARE..

So I can shoW yoU whO I am=)

whO I am

WhO I aMmm

WHO I AM