2012 started

1 January 2012 we both get restarted agn... But end up... failed... I think...
1st month of 2012 already alot happened to me~!! Arghhhh GOD~!
But I'm still trying to get over it!
So~ My relationship.. it's.. COMPLICATED
Complicated not means that my relation so OPEN
Depends lar~  But MINE? O.O        NO!
Although my heart fully loving you But there's a problem! that's y now...? not so really???
A LOT actually!
& that's y I shall say it is complicated.
No one will understand how my feeling was! Except Jesus & my mom! No one else could!!

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In my heart you're still there... Yes I'm telling yoU, & yes I'm saying you...
I always wonder will you read my blog? If you're reading my blog..Do you know that I was talking bout you actually? I can feel it... Or maybe sometimes it was I too sensitive?? But I really can see how unhappy you are.. sometimes you even one word also not willing to say to me...? Is it I do anything wrong?
Hey~ I care about you! I admit it, I was care about you so much! Sometimes when I saw yoU unhappy, my feeling just automatically unhappy too... Hey~ smile please~ =) I like to see you smile, you know? When you're smile-ing, or even though laughing..you're just so handsome enough at that moment..
& sometimes I was thinking..... ... .. .. Is it my relationship makes u sad?? I was curious about it!! because in a friendship caring also not consider is to over right?
Sometimes I really wish to hear it from your own words, that's telling me..is that have same feeling? Or is me too over?
When I know you willing to come back, I'd really happy you know?? Don't! Don't be scared! I'm not that meaning kay~ Just happy to see you agn..
I never thought that I'll write you more than me and him's relationship... ..
Friend!=) Or you're just treating me as your friend, or. . . . I just over thinking ???

Nowadays already 2012 right? But Y? I've been through something it just like 1960 or 1950's happen??
All my life have been good BUT now WHAT~~~ I'm thinking What The HeLL~ xD Although sometimes really like living in hell but I still trusted God! He's been watching me over! I know! When He let me fell down, but He is also catched me through it all!
Sometimes I really dont understand... Y?  But I know  someday I will know WHY I've been there before.? ...

Is that I happy recently? Not so.. =)