innocence

I have said about our story before. I never thought that, this picture could be found back... I thought everything about us was LOST..  There is a picture..But..~ I think that's really lost..! This picture, we haven't begun yet..=) Haa.. when I saw back this picture, I felt that I'm so young~little or what.. (??) Y?? cz At that time, I only 14years old~.. How small I am...XD =P haa.. . Yea~ really! I admit it..! At that time, I was really capricious!! I never thought the consequences.. I was very NOT obedient.. violation of my parents.. Because, at that time..{He} can be said was the person the most I love.. almost~ aLmost~.... ! I could love him more than anything..everything..~!!  But, I know this is wrong..!! I can't be like that.. I have to control.. I must control myself..! In order to him, I've done a lot of wrong thing, wrong decision... BuT, all that I can say~  At that time, I really Love him~!.. I truly love him..with my true heart..~ I have no any complaints.. because I don't want to... I only know that.. Love is patient, Love is inclusive, Love is selfless, Love is unconditional.. Although I am still jealous[means 吃醋(eating vinegar)].. when he was ambiguous-ing with many girls.. doubtFUL....  However, we had a very happy time, although it was only a very short moment...~... .. . may be at that time, for me, already feel happy enough..for a whole day.. although keep crying at everynight.. Haa.. was so funny~ At that time,... . I still love you.. VerY..
UNTIL....~ I know yoU betrayed me.. and the others girls together..
I was willing to let go & used almost more than half years to give up..