Monday, July 8, 2013

奇妙?

奇妙?
难道,这就是所谓‘上帝 在做工’正在发生奇妙的时间...?

我想...大概都是了
怎么都不能给我偷懒啊...? 想再偷多一阵子的懒惰都不行 =P

祂,真的放了很多‘属灵’的人在我的身边
[非常好 == ...] 
因为他们都回一直鼓励我,督触我要祷告
一直都想把我和神的关系给拉好

有你们真好
因为,这都是我一直以来所祈求的
当然,我未遇过
自己也超级的懒惰
ngek ngek ngekkk  XP

其实.... .... 说真的... 好像蛮感动....??!

可是又很迷惑 @@
其实两个都很好
但,就是不懂为什么,竟然会觉得
他比较可以找到答案
结果真的是

是不是才刚刚,所以新鲜....?
可是他又是很新的啊...? 为什么就有分别..?? 真搞不懂

都同年龄,分别是一个M和一个是F罢了嘛...?
不是一向来都是F比较思想成熟点,而且更容易谈咩..?
又好像不是酱...?

怎样都好,人始终是人,也日久见人心...

觉得要好像他这样...向他学习... 带着完全pure的heart 单单在神的面前,定睛仰望祂
做了那么久的基督徒
现在才完全感受到什么是 [定睛仰望祂]

还没经过今天之前,我还是会想寻死
但,听了那场道... 知道了死亡只不过是一道桥

我现在只不过,不想那么快到那道桥那里了
=)


Wednesday, July 3, 2013

A REAL BoyFrienD♥

Don't care if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now.
I
don't care if you are a guy or a woman or Michael Jackson.
Just read this, it will make a difference.
If only everyone could see this and understand it.


When she stares at your mouth
Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she
thinks shes stronger than you
Grab her and don't let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you
Give her your attention

When she pulls away
Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared
Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands
Hold her's and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does

When she says it's over
she still wants you to be hers

When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
-Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes
-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
-Let her know she's important.
- Don't talk about other girls around her
- Kiss her in the pouring rain
In the Jesus name Bless all the Couple in this world...
and Forever LOVE <3

COPY

I'm Back

waaa...这里都发霉了...hahaa
整年都没上过来updated了...

原来短短一年可以发生那么多事.... 回想起来都觉得有点恐怖...
因为幼稚天真的自己,可以做出那么鲁莽和超任性的事... 一点都没想和顾过后果...
真不应该... (?)

人有时会很矛盾...
会想要有重头来过的机会....把那些不好的事或记忆都给删除掉,然后重新来过
但,如果一个没有过去的自己...还是自己吗?
这个的自己,你还要吗?

虽然,真的很难过... 可能‘辛苦’有些人觉得更多人比我更苦...
但...当你遇到那种事情的时候,你又会有什么说法
我真的不相信,你不会说‘辛苦’这两个字

你们有过类是的经验的人都会说要用上几年的时间去恢复...
那我呢?
3个月,都没有
你们还想要我怎么样???
我已经没做麻烦到别人的事
如果,我真的那么快没事...我想你们也值得怀疑我,是不是我说得那么严重了

我真的还很需要时间, 说没事了?那肯定是我骗你们的...
我已经非常用力地尽力地尽量地配合你们,我也希望你们知道,因为我都知道你们都是发自内心,很用心地帮我...
但,不是我要泼你们冷水,我只是想要你们更了解...教会对我来说,真的不再是那回事了... 可能现在你们再做什么感动我的事时,我不会再好像以前那样地流眼泪..
(但,并不代表我不知道也感受不到和看不到)

我不是不回教会,我真的不懂自己几时才可以走出来...
我很记得有人和我说过,当一个基督徒离开了教会,比一个还未信耶稣的人,更难回去教会
我真的无法否定

Ummmm....Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...........
你看,要我感谢上面那个真的蛮不容易的事...
以前很容易就说[神,耶稣,上帝]
现在...
‘上面那个’
不好意思啊~ 上面那个 (呵呵)

祂派了很多很有‘分量’(呵呵)的天使们,来扶我一把...
要扶我,其实真的不容易
所以,我开始了我的小生意,你们都可以看到我Facebook里所post
以上的网址看看,多多关注,给与支持!!
说真的,我们都非常需要

我知道一切都不容易,再次地 试着 努力

特意:在这里,试着向一些帮我,扶着我的人,甚至要帮我的人说
感谢!


Wednesday, July 25, 2012

带着感恩的心♥

感恩 24.7...

感恩能够认识到你,因为从小就很渴望见到或身边的朋友都是和我同姓。
很可惜我的就是那么的 ‘少’ 所以都未遇过一个男生是和我同姓你是第一个!
所以我才说,这份对我来说是非常值得珍惜的一份友谊!

这份感激不能说完呢!不单只是你时常的接送!我更知道你考试。。睡觉的时间不够,可是你都愿意答应我来载我!虽然我们俩的靠近可是,必须特地转上去才能够到我。。所以其实每次你都可以直接就去,可是因为载我... 有时还会弄得一点迟到。。[真不好意思!]可是你都无怨言!我知道那晚你很累.. .. 累得都不想跟他们喝茶,但!你还问我要不要和他们喝茶..(?) 看着你那疲惫的眼神望着我时..还带着深呼吸的语气.. 我还那忍心? 当然!连我的最爱(蛋糕)都放弃~ XP heeee.... 在回的路途中又遇到 封路 的状况,害得疲惫的你要兜个大圈才把我送到回家。
我也记得那次,我们都参加一个‘特会’本来遇到考试的你好像是来不到,可是因为delay了,你..还是出现了.. 因为每当考试的时候,注重又紧张的你一定又是 ‘温书,温通宵’。你竟然还会问我们需要人载回吗...(?) 所以..结果三晚都由你来送我们回家。 谢谢你啊!!!
贪喝的我.... .. 很想念 {chatime} 所以我还是开了口,要你载我去买![过分的我] 我知道时间很不早了!接近12am.. 你也很累,我也很累... 可是我就是很想喝嘛~... .. 所以你只是问了一句:"你要喝啊?... .. . 是打包吗?"  当然我也知道你是会载我去买的咯~! XD Hahahaaa...LOL
幸好你也想喝所以结果是我们俩一起去打包^-^ 为了表示感激!也当然是请你喝啦^-* 嘻嘻。。

我知道你一直都想要买一个十字架的链,(我也是想买给你)可是就是找不到适合的!虽然我有说要送你也不算答应可是我就是很想送你!所以你的生日成了我最美丽的借口!哈哈哈
找到我~~~~~~ ~ ~ ~!! 想要找你喜欢的款式和适合你的真难啊!!! (知道你蛮挑的xP)
但不知满不满你的意?可是感谢神,你应该是满意的。。因为你会问是不是三为一体的神,哈哈酱都给你想到!那也不错的想法! 你真有智慧啊!!=D  愿那三位一体的真神常与你同在!更加希望送给的一切会让你开心和喜欢!只不过是小小的礼物,但!是我最大的心意!!


只要你开心,我就心满意足了!所以你其实一点都不用不好意思^-*

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

沙子之缘

我们只是沙子之缘..  在万人中,我们相遇... 可惜只有我留意你的存在..
我非常珍惜我们拥有的日子,只不过短短4天和4个晚上...
从一个 video clip里..第一次见到你,只觉得你是个很有喜乐的人..
你领着你的作品,也是我第一次开始听到你的歌...

到了晚上,终于都亲眼看到你的真人,不用再透过银幕,你..... ... ..
真的真的真的 太吸引我了! 我整场聚会的视线都离不开了你!你拥有着一股很浓烈的魅力,不断地向我散发!你的嗓子是我听过最沙的声音,而且是沙中之沙。当你拉音时你的声音就像一粒粒的沙子一样!

你弹吉它的表情是我见过最帅,最酷,最可爱又灿烂的笑容!
最令我感动的是你所带的每场敬拜赞美!你的每一创作! 你歌词里所描述对神的渴慕和神一切的美好,都很贴切!我不单只羡慕你!因为这都是我所求所想的带领敬拜!一个充满了神的恩膏的敬拜赞美!
你的每一个小动作我都很喜欢,更加的是欣赏你!

日子还是要过,所以4天也是一样的,很快就过去了!
在最后一晚,也是我们最近的距离。但...... 你是在高高的台上,而我只不过还是在台下万人里...

但,你是第一个让我懂得去珍惜,爱惜,保护,疼爱,喜欢,爱....的一个人...
你也是我第一次那么强烈的感觉到心跳加速的人!不单是喜欢,也是很爱!
所以从那天的聚会结束了过后,你就成了我每天祷告里的对象!

我知道再遇见的机会是难的了,所以我也没有要怎么样。
我更不够了解你,你是否单身?已婚?我都无法清楚知道,所以我惟有这样的祷告。
祈求神赐给你一个,很爱你,很喜欢你,恨珍惜你,很爱惜你,很疼爱你,很会保护你的一个好女生,女朋友,甚至老婆!让你每天都神的同在!不让你遇到凶恶危险,帮助你当你遇到了试探。天天都听见神对你说话,在创作方面更加是有神所赐的聪明智慧!愿你的敬拜更讨神的喜悦!不单只基督徒被感动,还未认识主的人也会明白歌词里的意思更加是触摸到他们的心!

为什么是沙子之缘?
因为 ‘沙子’ 的意思是 我们是在千万人海里相遇的...
而且,你拥有一把很独特的‘沙子’嗓子。

Heal Our Land

Alert icon
Our hearts are waiting for You.
Our hearts are waiting for You.
Earnstly seeking awaiting our healing.
Yes our hearts are waiting for You.
We humble ourselves and pray.
We humble ourselves and pray.
Your love never failing our
God ever reigning.
We humble ourselves and pray.

[CHORUS]
Heal our land.
We need Your love.
Restore us.
Restore us.
We need
Your touch again.

[BRIDGE]
Arise arise.
Around us shine.
Finally hope is here hope is here.

Friday, July 6, 2012

ARMY OF GOD - Redo Daeng Badji

Now is the time Your people ARISE
To be an army to show Your GLORY
There is no one who can stop us
We'll take this city for Your GLORY
Show Your greatness and Your Power
Give us the VICTORY

Chorus:

We are! We are the ARMY OF GOD!
Burning! burning the fire of God yeah!
We are! We are the ARMY OF GOD!
Burning! burning the fire of God yeah!

Bridge:

No one can stop us now
(No one can stop us now)
We are history makers
(We are history makers)
We'll gonna take this city
(We'll gonna take this city)
Take it for your glory
(Take it for your glory)

Ciptaan Baru - Redo Daeng Badji

Kupercaya Kaulah Tuhan
Mengubah hidup menjadi baru
Kupercaya Kaulah Tuhan
Mengubah hidup menjadi indah

Besar kasih setia yang tlah kau tunjukkan
Besar kasih setia yang tlah kau nyatakan

Ku tau diriku menjadi ciptaan baru
Kerana kasihMu ku akan selalu bersorak
HEY! HEY! Yesuslah Tuhan!
HEY! HEY! Yesuslah Tuhan!

Kupercaya Kaulah Tuhan
Mengubah hidup menjadi baru
Kupercaya Kaulah Tuhan
Mengubah hidup menjadi indah

Besar kasih setia yang tlah kau tunjukkan
Besar kasih setia yang tlah kau nyatakan

Ku tau diriku menjadi ciptaan baru
Kerana kasihMu ku akan selalu bersorak
HEY! HEY! Yesuslah Tuhan!
HEY! HEY! Yesuslah Tuhan!

Kau ubahkan diriku menjadi ciptaan baru
Kini ku hidup bagiMu (x4)

Ku tau diriku menjadi ciptaan baru
Kerana kasihMu ku akan selalu bersorak
HEY! HEY! Yesuslah Tuhan!
HEY! HEY! Yesuslah Tuhan! (x4)

Surabaya Bagi Kemuliaan-Mu(Surabaya[Malaysia] for your Glory)- Redo Daeng Badji

Kami umatMu berkumpul, bersujud menyembah,
Naikkan dao kami, di hadapan tahtaMu,
Kami nyatakan Kau Tuhan, atas kota kami,
datanglah kerajaanMu, nyatakan kuasaMu

dan kami nyatakanKau Tuhan,
kami serukan

Chorus:

Surabaya[Oh Malaysia] Bagi KemuliaanMu! Nyatakanlah kebesaranMu!
Dan kami tinngikan, kami agungkan Kau Yesus, Tuhan!
Surabaya[Oh Malaysia] Bagi KemuliaanMu! Nyatakanlah kebesaranMu!
Dan kami serukan, kami nyatakan Surabaya bagiMu Yesus

Back to chorus

Haleluya - Redo Daeng Badji


Haleluya, Haleluya
Bagi Anank Domba, yang duduk di tahta
Haleluya, Haleluya
Bagi Anank Domba, berkuas slamanya.

Holy Spirit - Redo Daeng Badji

I love You my Lord
Only You that I need
When I see Your face
My life has been changed
I’m longing for You
Longing for Your presence, Lord
To be closer to You
That is my heart’s desire

Chorus:
Holy Spirit, we love You Lord
Let me see You face to face
Holy Spirit, we love You Lord
Let me see You face to face

Monday, January 16, 2012

If This Was A Movie♥

Last night heard my own heart beating
Sounded like footsteps on my stair
Six months gone and I'm still reaching
Even though I know you not there

I was playing back a thousand memories baby thinkin bout everthing we been through
Maybe I've been going back too much lately
When time stood still and I had you

Come back, come back, come back to me
like you would you would
if this was a movie
stand in the rain outside till I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me
like you could you could
if you just said you're sorry
I know that we can work it out somehow
But If this was a movie you'd be here by now


I know people change and these things happen,
but I remember how it was back then
Wrapped up in you arms,
and our friends are laughing
cause nothing like this ever happened to them

Now I'm pacing down the hall,
chasing down your street
Flashback to the night when you said to me
Nothings gonna change, not for me and you
Not before I knew how much I had to lose


Come back, come back, come back to me
like you would you would
if this was a movie
stand in the rain outside till I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me
like you could you could
if you just said you're sorry
I know that we can work it out somehow
But If this was a movie you'd be here by now

If you out there
If your somewhere
If your moving on
I've been waiting for you ever since you've been gone
I just want it back the way it was before
and I just wanna see you back at my front door

And I'd say
Come back, come back, come back to me like
you would before you said its not that easy
Before the fight before I left you out
But I'd take it all back now!

Come back, come back, come back to me
like you would you would
if this was a movie
stand in the rain outside till I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me
like you could you could
if you just said you're sorry
I know that we can work it out somehow
But If this was a movie you'd be here by now


You'd be here by now
Is that the kinda ending you wanna see now?
Baby what about the ending?
Oh I thought you'd be here by now

Saturday, January 14, 2012

2012 started

1 January 2012 we both get restarted agn... But end up... failed... I think...
1st month of 2012 already alot happened to me~!! Arghhhh GOD~!
But I'm still trying to get over it!
So~ My relationship.. it's.. COMPLICATED
Complicated not means that my relation so OPEN
Depends lar~  But MINE? O.O        NO!
Although my heart fully loving you But there's a problem! that's y now...? not so really???
A LOT actually!
& that's y I shall say it is complicated.
No one will understand how my feeling was! Except Jesus & my mom! No one else could!!

{Another Topic here}
In my heart you're still there... Yes I'm telling yoU, & yes I'm saying you...
I always wonder will you read my blog? If you're reading my blog..Do you know that I was talking bout you actually? I can feel it... Or maybe sometimes it was I too sensitive?? But I really can see how unhappy you are.. sometimes you even one word also not willing to say to me...? Is it I do anything wrong?
Hey~ I care about you! I admit it, I was care about you so much! Sometimes when I saw yoU unhappy, my feeling just automatically unhappy too... Hey~ smile please~ =) I like to see you smile, you know? When you're smile-ing, or even though laughing..you're just so handsome enough at that moment..
& sometimes I was thinking..... ... .. .. Is it my relationship makes u sad?? I was curious about it!! because in a friendship caring also not consider is to over right?
Sometimes I really wish to hear it from your own words, that's telling me..is that have same feeling? Or is me too over?
When I know you willing to come back, I'd really happy you know?? Don't! Don't be scared! I'm not that meaning kay~ Just happy to see you agn..
I never thought that I'll write you more than me and him's relationship... ..
Friend!=) Or you're just treating me as your friend, or. . . . I just over thinking ???

Nowadays already 2012 right? But Y? I've been through something it just like 1960 or 1950's happen??
All my life have been good BUT now WHAT~~~ I'm thinking What The HeLL~ xD Although sometimes really like living in hell but I still trusted God! He's been watching me over! I know! When He let me fell down, but He is also catched me through it all!
Sometimes I really dont understand... Y?  But I know  someday I will know WHY I've been there before.? ...

Is that I happy recently? Not so.. =)

Saturday, December 31, 2011

Hoping 2012 will be a better year♥

Hoping 2012 will be a better year, this is what I want~!
Although in this year{2011} I've tried to work... but end up I've fAILED all the job..
I think I'll be BOSS someday~~~ Hmmm~ ^-* Cause I HATE 打工仔, I always thinking Y I work so hard for u?! & What I've earn ALL the money also not MINE??? This is UNFAIR.. Sorry if I my word offend u jor~ xD

All I wanna says is This is mE, not means u also like that~ Evryone also different~ ^-^


& this year I've been thru a lot problems!! Of course I've been thru a lots of happened as well!
 In this year suddenlly many guys were pursue me...*shy shy* ahaaaa...
But I will treat these as... hmmm... I dont knw what to say..><
Cause all of these I believes that God were taught me a lot of lessons~..
& I also trusted on myself I can go thru~ ^-^ Cause Jesus He's never leave me ALONE!! & I gone thru already!

虽然经历了许多, 可是我觉得我的生命更加的值~!
这样的人生很~..... AMAZING~!!! XD ahahahaaaa. . . . .
虽然我经历的不是你们可以想象到的, 一字一句都无法说完.. 更何况你们也不一定会明白我所发生的一切, 所经历的一切..
但我最骄傲的是! 我妈咪比我还要了解这些process~ 真的除了上帝以外就是她了
而且她很够力, 因为每次这些大场面都是她挺身而出地帮我解决, 我担忧, 教导我, 许多都因为她在我身边...

在这段日子里, 我承受的压力不是你们表面能够看得出... 而且我相信我不是最惨那个!!*加油
我见识到 *人* 有多~~~~。。。。  所以! 我们的确是罪人!
再说人不是十全十美的
再说神是有恩典和慈爱
但! 神也是信实公义的! 不要浪费白白得来的机会和救恩

还有.... 我真的不懂怎么形容他们...
不过我还是一样会尊重他们, 你们是长辈你们要这样做一定有你的理由!
可是! 有很多事不是单看表面! 凡事都有两面, 为什么你们就不看清楚那一面呢?
为什么你们要这样做? 我是真的用心对你们, 虽然我们没见过面可是...
尽管你们多不喜欢我, 可以直接说... 不要再做这么多小动作...
如果我是那孩子, 知道最信任的亲人用这种手段还说出不属实的话... 我真的伤透了心...

故事纯粹类是
或有相同

我很珍惜这段感情, 不只是以前 现在还是... 无论怎样 这段友谊我是会设法地去保留和保护.!

& that's why I won't post a lot that what target what thgs what else that I'll gonna reach it. I just hoping 2012 will be a better year~
Although every time I knew what I've done also is a wrong decision, but I'm not going to give this up.

& Tomorrow I'll turn to 18yrs old = =
yES I knw! I'm aging !!! ><

I Love the memories~~




 Even I've watched TWICE, But It's not ENOUGH for me~xD




 妈咪♥

















































see U next year~xD

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

♥你还是要幸福♥

确定就别亲吻 感情很容易了一个人
一个人若不够 爱淡了不离不弃多残忍
你留下来的垃圾 我一天一天总会丢完的
甚至真心真意的祝福 永恒在你的身上发生

你还是要幸福 你千万不要再招惹别人哭所有错误从我这里落幕 别跟着我 铭心 刻骨
你还是要幸福 我才能确定我还得很清楚确定自己再也不会占据 你的篇幅
明天 开始 这一切都结束
还我钥匙的备份 我觉得再见可以很单纯
我甚至真心真意的祝福 永恒在你的身上先发生

你还是要幸福 你千万不要再招惹别人哭
所有错误从我这里落幕 别跟着我 铭心 刻骨

你还是要幸福 我才能确定我还得很清楚
确定自己再也不会占据 你的篇幅
明天 开始 这一切都结束

你还是要幸福 你千万不要再招惹别人哭
所有错误从我这里落幕 别跟着我 铭心 刻骨

你如果很幸福 半夜的简讯我就无需回覆
因为你的悲喜已经有了 容身之处 我也 能有 最纯粹的孤独
最孤独 的孤独





我承认我对你撒过无数的娇, 发过无数的脾气, 对你大耍任性....
可是我从不曾对你说谎~
因为我从来未想过, 为什么这样残忍去伤害这段感情~!
我很珍惜,我很努力,我以为..... ...
                                                   以为............................. ....................
我们能够一起维持与经营这段'值得'的感情....
我还曾经以为..... 以为我们会有将来....

我还以为..... 再以为....~!!! ><
你是和他们不同.....

一切都是我自己


以为

The End

"Telling the truth and making someone cry is better than telling a lie and making someone smile."


LOL~!!!!
 Do you know??
I  retyped my blog ==!

写些不要再关于他的事!
如果有关注my blog的fren,都知道我换了全新的blog~
旧的不去, 新的不来!
 面对更挑战的明天吧~

Friday, October 7, 2011

You are MY PRECIOUS♥♥♥♥

害羞的喃喃细语
浸透在耳边
满满的积累着我们的故事
互相望着对方走下去
那些傻傻又美好的模样

漫步走过低矮的巷子小路
如同缝隙中照射下的一缕阳光
什么都无法预知
曾为我种下小小梦想的你

my Presious(my Presious)
my Presious(my Presious)
曾经那些痛苦的回忆
没有痕迹
消失的无影无踪

my Presious(my Presious)
my Presious(my Presious)
哪怕是一小步
也变得弥足珍贵
如此心动

心情很好
却要擦身而过
不舍你的眼神 想要把它捧在手心
曾经不懂事却很纯真的日子
从我心底里传来

曾经那些分外恳切的愿望
已变成脑海中的回忆 叹口气徘徊
那时周围好像只剩下我一个
曾紧握住我的双手的你

my Presious(my Presious)
my Presious(my Presious)
曾经只变得不舍的心
曾经默默不语 抚摸着我的你

my Presious(my Presious)
my Presious(my Presious)
只要有你在我身边
什么都可以为你做的那份心动

my Presious(my Presious)比阳光更温暖
my Presious(my Presious)比宝石还灿烂
曾经只变得不舍的心
曾经默默不语 抚摸着我的你

my Presious(my Presious)比天空更清澈
my Presious(my Presious)比琉璃还透明
只要有你在我身边
什么都可以为你做的那份心动





♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Thursday, October 6, 2011

When you're gone {3}

在今天,的深夜里.....
我真的能再次能睡着吗?? 我不确定....
但我能确定,每当你离开我的日子里我肯定超过3点以后才能入眠....
因为那时候的我,已经累得不能再看我们的照片了... 也足以使我的脑袋累得不能再想念你....

听着 Just the way you are.. Boyce Avenue版的...
我能深深地感受到歌词里的意思,因为你时常都告诉我...
你有多爱护我,你从来都不会要我做任何改变,因为你只会无条件地包容我...
还告诉我你会撑着,为我撑我的坏脾气,为我撑我的压力...

其实你真的做得到!! 我并没告诉你,我不想再和你在半夜谈个不停,我不会忍心看着有多爱护我,完全奋不顾身的保护我的人.... 受伤呢?? 可是我每次都让你受更大的伤....
因为我只会无情冷意地拒绝你,推你于千里... 因为我很无助...我不知道能为你做什么,我只会弄到你哭,每次更令你更伤心难做,难受...

我收到那两封的sms 我感动的落泪,那对你的爱完全涌出来,从最心底.... 很深很深
我知道自己,不能没有了你...  你竟然有这么大的威力?? 远方的你竟然把你的温暖传到我的心来... 我知道没人能比得上我现在拥有的幸福...

当我想放弃自己,很想放弃时,你又再次的很温柔地,很安静的,很窝心的,再次扶我起来...
不断地陪伴着我,你真的做得到哦!! ^-*

对不起,我一次又一次的拒绝你... 可是你的不离不弃.... 使我无法抗拒

你的尊重我得到了全部... 我不是不知道的.. 你对我所做的全部...

我爱你

我们的想法,做的,要的完全都一样
因为每次我不单只想说谢谢
因为还有

我爱你


6/10/2011 Wednesday Midnight 2:02

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

When you're gone {2}

原来是骗不了自己,我的确很想你,是非常... 我以为告诉你我不会哭,等到很累
我就能解脱,是!我承认有时真的在想何必呢? 但我还是无法控制自己...
对不起我骗了你,我还是一样老样子地想念你,看着我们的照片越看感觉
越幸福.......
我会告诉你我们还没结婚那其实并不是我不喜欢你叫我老婆而是在提醒我自己应该理智点,
不想把这份幸福这么快就拥有而会很快又失去!!! 我真的不想这样!
因为我知道自己接下来的日子我会更痛苦,因为无法在你身边而更思念你,你的一切切!
家里竟然不习惯了,突然的很安静.. 很安静.... 没有你的令人哭笑不得的声音,你的一举一动...
每当你在叫我老婆时,你懂我的心从来没有过的甜吗?真的甜在心里!可是很担心这种快乐很快会离我而去.....
在你要走的那天在Jusco 的露台,你都一直问我,为什么不和你讲话都不看你,其实当时你不懂,我也不会在那时让你知道我的心又多痛!! 我的心在趟血,在那时我多么的难受!
我不想讲话是因为我忍得很辛苦地把那句话不告诉你,不让你知道我有多么的不舍得你,
还有我知道若我开口我会求你求得很厉害地叫你请你别离开我,好吗?
但我并不想这样做,我不敢看你是因为我害怕我会不舍得,而且我不敢贪心的多望你一眼
因为贪心只会弄得我更加受苦,是自己拿来的苦
因为再望你我会紧抱你不再让你走.....
不断努力地告诉自己一直拼命地提醒自己,千万别在你面前露出任何不舍的样子,
别哭出来先一定要挨到你平安回到时,很幸运的你终于上了车,看见车子越走越远时就已很清楚,你还是回了,在的士里回家路上眼泪好像喉头坏了自由地往下流个不停,回到家只能冲进房里坐在地上身子趴在床边的痛哭了起来,哭得很痛,痛得再大哭
因为我是自私的,我只想和你在一起,我更知道不可能,因为就算你在KL我们就一定可以天天粘在一起吗?这是完全不可能,所以在这段时间里我会更加学习珍惜,
因为就算再怎么近可是心不在你那里,都是白费的,可是我懂你,信你,所以再怎么远两个人的心依然在一起

不喜欢咖啡的我竟然爱上了你爱喝的咖啡香,我喝咖啡为了保留你的气味在叫你平时叫得食物吃,只不过,想好让我更能感觉到你在我的身边

老公

老婆真的很想你,还是不听话的眼泪它.... 偷溜了出来
还有,我当然等你,除了你还有谁再值得我去等


5/10/2011 Tuesday Midnight  2:50

When you're gone {1}

在深夜里,不敢打扰你... 只好在这里告诉你我想你,很想你,超想你....听着When you're gone...看着照片里的你,我什么都做不到...心里打架,告诉自己一切都很正常,我明白...可是心,脑子里都是你,不怕辛苦不怕累地想念你...喝水时想起你,吩咐我记得喝多点要温的,路过咖啡店或去喝喝茶的地方总是嗅到咖啡味好像你在似的....可是每次回头...那只不过是我太想你的画面罢了...
告诉自己不许哭,不必哭,可是看着看着照片中的我们,眼角冰冰的泪珠竟然滑落了...鼻子突然酸了起来又是哭了出来....... 我很无助,无奈,无力...... 我没办法留在你身边,更没办法把你留在身边...
总是矛盾地接你电话,怕听到你的声音因为害怕挂电话的那刻....不舍得,很不舍得...想起泪也都同来,很对不起...总是爱对你耍脾气! 无理由地...可是你都不气我反而更紧张我,我的心更痛!!!!!!! 当我写这 '痛' 时真的得无法形容.....因为明知你没错是自己想你,只想你更加的注意我可以快点回来,无聊的我竟然还是要做,明知你就不会.... 还是每次都同样的对你发无理的气....... 我竟然会这样做?? 可是每次过后都很后悔,因为自相矛盾地怕你对我的爱因此减少! 害怕失去你,没了你我怎么办? 我不知不觉中,深深的爱上了你被你紧紧地吸引着,
我爱你
伟盛..........
总是念念不忘的记得你那语气语调的叫我                 老婆



29/9/2011 Wednesday Midnight 12:47