Monday, December 20, 2010

为什么?

为什么??
为什么你会伤心? 你到底为什么而伤心呢??
是你喜欢的对象和你有过节吗,还是和你的朋友们,还是和你的家人,还是和你自己的私人事情有关??
我竟然很想,很想知道... 为什么..

还是..还是........ 是和我有关的...? 伤心因为是知道了我这样?或我这样地..而是..烦到你...??!



为什么我这样地不争气!!? 竟然去关注你的事!?
有时我真的很生气自己..很讨厌自己..
是真的很!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



但,我相信我很快就可以放得开!! =D =D =D

Sunday, December 19, 2010

到现在...

到了现在.. 我还是未能完全做得到..

但!我会很努力很尽量地去...解掉...  对你的一切..

到了现在.. 你买的... 我..
我还是还没把它吃掉...
可能真的是我不舍得吧....?~
[因为我还是觉得,想和你一起把它吃掉..毕竟...一开始就是我们的打算..可是事实就是没机会..]

这几天都连续地见面.. 可是我觉得今天是我最成功的一天!!~ 因为我没有很明显或一直都要粘着你..[虽然在妈妈的面前失败了(因为一直提着你的名字)也因为我靠着上头来的和加自己的耐力去顶着一切的奢望]

看到了你和他们..有点羡慕他们..[因为很有说有笑的不是和我.]
但,不懂为什么很莫名其妙地会自然地开心起来..当你会提起TRON的时候...
[可是我更知道,有得和你一起看的更不会是我]
我会硬着头皮地去面对现实~! =)

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Done

Ok~
All the things are Done & All the things are Finished..
Ok~
I'll  STOP thinking about you..
Ok~
I won't let myself to keep missing you..[as I can]..~

我尽量地去控制着自己...
对你的一切..

因为一切都完了..~!
我不会再给我自己继续地自作多情...!!

高恩琪醒醒吧~! 成熟点吧~!
请别再胡思乱想了~!!

Bye Bye...

并不是我想象的那样..

原来并不是我自己所想象的那样...

是..
我不可否认  ..对你没有好感..
但!我想..也只是是好感罢了...

不是我自己认为的那样...吧?~


现在我被我自己搞的好confused很complicated...

不知怎么办才好?~
更不懂怎么去面对你...

Umm..~ 自然就对了.. 就当没事..^-^

Friend

要选择自己爱的人,而对方又同时爱你是件很不容易的事...
[对我来说真的好难哦]


是,... 我只会'敢'当你是我普普通通的朋友...
我好像感觉得到的事..是.....

可是,

很多时候,更加感觉到你在避开我...
也许是吧~!
很多时候,可能..可能..真的真的是我自己太多心了...!

我真的不想!! 更不敢表露出来..


但~!

好像,很多人的视线都注目我了...

我更不好意思的是好像被他妈妈发现到..
因为当我的眼目...正在注视着他时....被他妈妈看见了!!!~~ (@~@)

羞羞了啦....~~~~~~~~~!!!  XD

真的不好意思nEH~~

虽然如此....

但,...真的!!
我不会....

就算~!(有时控制不到那个眼睛或行为或态度)
但,...真的!!
不会更明显...


我不想!!

去破坏..
我们之间的   友谊 ~!

我不想!真的不想没有了朋友(尤其是你),[等下连朋友都没得做T~T]
我更不想把你吓跑了!!!
所以,这几次我都没posted在网上说我已经updated了... 免得更多人知道..
这样你也更加不会懂我的心意..=P~


但!
我好像感觉到你有了女朋友....
可能我多心..我多疑..
但! 若不是有女朋友就是有了心仪的对象..
或..你当我真的多疑了吧.... =D

Thursday, December 16, 2010

NoT a Dream~!!

Taday was a Fairy Tales?? Hahaaa.. something which is like tat..xD cz Today wasn't a DREAM~!!! How excited I am MAN??!~
& Did you knw?? & Did you can be imagine this?? Both of us was keep thinking of the same thingsss~~ & almost all the SAME?? O GoSH~?? [many ways]^-* & when we having conversation tat time, we talk/chat was soooooooooo Naturally already..~ ~!!! not lik last time.. 1 time better than 1 time tim^-^ improved a lot~ so good~ ^-^ for friendship also can what?? XD   enough for Happy Happy jor..~ =)
I'm really glad tat you really willing to share with me..about your thgs or anythgs else~ It is improved a loT?? hahaaa.. Better jor~^-^
How Come?? xP~
CooL~~~ MAN!!!!! XD XD XD
& I'm Loving it.. & SURE keep missing on tat time..tat we were together..
ALTHOUGH it was only few hours, bUT for me.. already enough to represented 一生一世....


I wondering... why both of us can done the same things, thinking of the same matters, wanted the same things, think of the same way...etc..etc..~ ^-^ 

I love the few hours..
I'll miss the few hours all the time..
I won't show you the way I want.. Or I L***...

Because, {You take me away from sadness, When we're together} or you just stay with me.. or just stayin bsid of me..already enough 4 me.. to stay happy whole day... few hours....few days...few weeks... few months... few years..

I willing to pray for you..with non-stop..
I saw you.. nervous.. until...
yes~ I'll worry about you.. That's why.. I'll always pray for you..
Press on Jesus ya~!! Let's go for Jesus~!! =D

& I really THankFUL to GoD~~~!! Today wasn't a DREaM~!! It's reaL~ =D xD

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Just a Dream

Last night, I had a big..nop it was a GreaT dream to mE~!! Cz~~~!!! I dream about hIM!! Both of  us sitting in the car..He was fetching me.. Like we were going to somewhere... & after tat.. He was parking.. i still can remember clearly..Tat's was a night.. I saw HIS face..even through the darkness.. even through the reflection of HIS glasses... I still could make it clear in my mind~ in my brain~... This dream make me missing hIM so MUCH~~!!! How could I stay away out of this situation..??!
I'm trying so hard...
& I'm gonna to see you AGAIN~!!! XD
don't knw how to express the feels~ Don't knw want to b Happy or Sad....